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Written between October and November 2001.
it's getting hard to see
when all the sky is colored gray and blue
like dew that glistens on my eyelids
and could it just be me?
or something to discover patiently
maybe I'll never understand it
and would you trust in me?
I'm far away from all I hope to be, you see
I might not ever get there
and couldn't you believe
when all this time I wanted you for me
only I didn't even know it
and when I look at you
my spirit drowns in everything you do
it's true, I'm lost inside of you
as happy as I seem
I spend my time in hopelessness and dreams, you know
I wish I knew the reason
but when you're next to me
I feel the ghost of happiness in me
my soul is lighter than a feather
and would you stay with me?
when you're around I breathe so naturally
I know, I didn't want to show it
and if we were to sleep
I'll feel your hands so soft against my face
your lips are all I ever wanted
and when I look at you
my spirit drowns in everything you do
it's true, I'm lost inside of you
I'm far away from death
but when it's time to breathe my final breath, it's true
I'll blow a kiss to you